Ok guys so apa aku buat untuk excited kan diri aku seperti electron yang excites bila dapat cahaya lalu keluar daripada leaves and so the photosynthesis happens..blablabla, dah tak ingat, Hahahahahahahahhaha rindu bio jap.
Ok So in order to gain my excitement of being here, aku pun cari alternatif untuk membahagiakan diri ku dekat sini. So first try aku join club-club yang ada kat sini...club astronomy, sejati, unesco, aisec...pastu bila masuk club astronomy, aku figured out, aku tak minat dengan astronomy stuff ni, i don't like stargazing ke moongazing ke eyegazing sekalipun. Tapi kawan aku enjoy this kind of stuff, they said it is interesting when the members share the pics from the cerapan. They are amaze by that. Then unesco pulak kena interview. So aku dengan yakinnya yakin akan pass the interview...sekali tak lepas...dia interested kot dengan idea activity aku tapi ended dia failed kan aku, HAHAHA! Lagi frust kawan aku sorang ni lepas interview-.- so yeah frustration part 2.
Then aku apply join barisan pengurusan persaka, so pergi interview. Macam biasalah aku sentiasa yakin aku lepas interview, tapi this time deep in my heart aku tak berharap sangan sebab masa interview tu aku tak reti duduk diam sebab sejuk and kaki aku tak sampai dekat lantai tu, since aku ni pendek. So kerusi tu pulak ringan, so bergerak la kerusi tu pada setiap percubaan untuk mencapaikan kaki aku dekat lantai tu, hahaha! sedih sia dengar. And aku dah pasang niat, kalau aku fail persaka aku nak tukar faculty...hahahaha cerita gebang en! Tapi alhamdulillah walaupun aku tak dapat jadi president *gelak besar plis* tapi aku dapat jadi exco. Tapi still ada frust partnya. Dimana both of my friend yang pergi interview sama-sama dapat jadi majlis tertinggi while me is a freaking exco...hahahahahahahaha lol. I know I sound ungrateful. I am a very competitive girl inside ok. Tapi aku bersyukurlah sebab aku tengok dorang busy gak jadi MT. Maka niat penukaran faculty dibatalkan 98%.
Then another thing is having crush. Well, having crush always give you excitement to go to class right? Especially bila crush tu sekelas dengan engko. Hahaha, this time around no, neither my crush in the same class as mine nor the same age. He's 3 years older than me, he's born in 1995. Dia tu faci masa orientation days aku. Aku tak kenal pun dia and just know him by his name. Aku tak minat dia pun at first since dia tu "abang sado" sorta person and I dun like abang sado because most of em look scary to this little gurl. And suara dia tu serak basah, hidup segan mati tak mahu...and memula tu aku cem ok la suara dia memang cemtu, pastu the next day eh lelebih pulak seraknya. hahahahah! Kawan aku cakap dia hilang suara sebab dia cheers kekuat malam tu. Aku tak perasan pun since I dun like him yet.
But what makes me liking him is his personality. Ha he's pretty quiet person and nampak cam orang yang tak layan perempuan, gitchew koo...hahaha so that's what makes me to start liking him...my crush. But I at some point, I feel like he knew that he's my crush...seriously aku memang minah perasaan nak mampus, padahal dia kenal aku pun tak! Hahaha mamposlah. Aku ni seorang yang berani...hahaha tak de lah berani mana, tapi aku pernah confess dekat crush lama aku, tapi dia reject aku, dia cakap dia tak nak be in a relationship...hahah weh aku tak ajak dia couple pun dengan aku, aku just confess perasaan aku je. And sorry guys this is me...tapi sumpah doh kekadang aku terfikir, kenapalah aku tak confess awal-awal kalau tak mesti aku fokus je dalam kelas...hahaha! Sebab a week after aku confess tu my feeling towards him completely gone! Just like that...I was pretty heart broken la at first but surprisingly it heals me completely later on. Then aku penah baca this quote tau "The more you hide your feeling for someone, the more you fall for them". Dengan ini aku mengesahkan bahawa hypothesis accepted. Hahaha! Once you let it out, it'll be gone. All you need is to look at the bright side of your life ok semua!
Ha adakah aku akan confess dekat crush aku yang aku crush dekat dia so aku dah tak de catalyst nak feel excited to be here or keep my feeling so it grows bigger and feel excited to go to the class?
Oh boy, no. At the moment I'm working on not crush on him because I just don't want it either to grow or to fade. Just natural. Ok. So I'm avoiding myself from bump into him which rarely and avoiding myself from stalking him dekat socmed. I'm no longer a gebang girl when it comes to moving on! Oooyeah!
Asyhr.
It's been a while 2
Ola guys, I just posted my "it's been a while" entry just now and now I'm continuing the second part. The reason dia ada second part is because I accidentally talked nonsense in the previous entry. So I think it's better to proceed with the new one instead of continuing in the same entry.
Sooooo, alhamdulillah I managed to further my study at UTM. Currently I'm a first year student of BCS Bioinformatics at UTM. Hoyeah!
Honestly there's no honest answer of what I exactly feel about being in UTM and studying this courses. I still looking for the answer for myself..maybe later or probably on the graduation day kot baru tahu why I'm here taking this course. So here's the story why I don't really know what I'm feeling.
So masa fasa pertama upu tu aku apply bioinformatics, tapi aku tak ingatlah as pilihan ke berapa, and then masa fasa kedua upu nafsu aku untuk ke arah biology tu membuak buak, hahahaha! Tapi bukan medik mahu pun pure biology. Aku tak nak medik sebab aku ni tak bijak sangat nak jadi manusia berilmu secara spontan, hahaha kalau emergency mati dulu patient sebelum aku dapat discover the treatment..aku kalau benda yang berlaku secara tiba-tiba membuatkan otak aku tak function secara tiba-tiba so yeah I'm out from medic. Then why not pure bio? Haaa, sebab aku ni degil. Aku nak amik something more specific kalau amik pure bio kan kene belajar pasal pokok la jadah jadah, aku tak minat, I'm more into human stuff. So aku ubah pilihan aku. Mostly biomed, microb and biochem. Aku target aku dapatlah microb jadi strategy aku, aku nak letak benda yang aku yakin tak dapat seperti medic kat dalam list aku, so bila aku letak benda yang aku tak dapat, aku assume aku punya pilihan akan jadi narrower and so I will be chosen into to study microb. But then turns out aku tak dapat langsung upu tu...not at all. Frust nak mampus weh! Maybe sebab aku tak letak microb as my top 4 choices. And aku slack dekat chemistry aku. Chem aku dapat B so yeah go to hell la kalau nak sambung biomed kan. Then aku apply UM and UPM, which since UiTM tak ada microb for degree. Aku call UM aku tanya kenapa aku tak dapat, then dia cakap competitive tinggi. Besides aku punya cgpa 3.45 so not even pass the 3.50 so yeah...
Maka selepas menangis meratap kepergian impian gue, aku pun buat la upu appeal tu, and aku apply optometry since dia cakap aku layak...hahaha, well I'm a big dreamer ok. And bioinfo as my 3rd choice since 1st and 2nd aku letak yang ada interview and 4th choice aku Geoinformatics kat utm jugak. Oh, btw utk appeal upu, dia ada 4 choices je and pilihan yang ada tu depends on your result and kekosongan tempat... p/s: aku layak kot amik optometry and microb hahaha! So kalau dah jodoh tak kemana, maka dapatlah aku tawaran untuk study BCS Bioinformatics dekat UTM, benda yang aku letak masa fasa pertama upu...so aku assume aku memang ditakdirkan di sini. Kalau aku tak ubah pilihan aku masa fasa pertama upu mesti aku menangis macam orang hilang anak kan! Tapi tak pe la, aku belajar untuk membuat pilihan yang bijak for the future later, gitchewww! Hahahahaha!!
Another thing yang buat aku tak tahu tentang perasaan aku dekat sini is aku sebenarnya tak nak belajar dekat UTM sebab dekat dengan rumah. So macam tak feel ah nak belajar...tak rasa homesick pun! Hahahahaha, homesick tu best ok!
So aku pun bagitau la dekat member dari sekolah rendah yang senasib dengan aku ni yang aku tak rasa excited etc ada kat sini...tak macam masa aku kat dengkil. It's completely feeling less, dia more to perasaan stress. And surprisingly bukan aku je, member aku ni pun sama, stress gak sebab dia nak sambung biology and tak nak jumpa dah fizik ni, dah siap buang buku fizik, tapi ended up amik fizik industry dkat UTM gak, dekat dengan rumah jugak. Hahahaha, so kami berdua meluahkanlah perasaan yang tak ada perasaan tu.
Tak de la weh, aku dah la still tak sekepala dengan kawan baru...aku ni suka loyer buruk, dulu ada je orang nak layan loyer buruk aku ni, tapi kat sini diorang cam tak nak play along with my loyer buruk instead aku siap kena "pukul manja" lagi dengan kawan aku...pukul manja tu sakit doh, aku ni dah la lemah...hahahahahaha! Diorang cem serious je, kawan dengan orang baik pun susah, hahaha...then aku ni kalau masuk lab memang jenis suka pegang try equipments yang ada tau, tapi aku bukan buat apa pun just wondering how it works, dia compatible ke tak dengan other equipments etc and kawan aku punya serious sampai dia stress/annoyed/marah dengan melihat aku memegang stuffs tu semua...hahaha, chill doh. Tak de la, I'm not stupid to not knowing what I'm doing, faham tak? I know what I'm doing doh and it's my nature to try things out to wonder how it work etc. Kemon la, bosan nak mampus kot nak try dat thing kene warning, nak try this thing tak boleh, oh god, lifeless.
Asyhr.
Sooooo, alhamdulillah I managed to further my study at UTM. Currently I'm a first year student of BCS Bioinformatics at UTM. Hoyeah!
Honestly there's no honest answer of what I exactly feel about being in UTM and studying this courses. I still looking for the answer for myself..maybe later or probably on the graduation day kot baru tahu why I'm here taking this course. So here's the story why I don't really know what I'm feeling.
So masa fasa pertama upu tu aku apply bioinformatics, tapi aku tak ingatlah as pilihan ke berapa, and then masa fasa kedua upu nafsu aku untuk ke arah biology tu membuak buak, hahahaha! Tapi bukan medik mahu pun pure biology. Aku tak nak medik sebab aku ni tak bijak sangat nak jadi manusia berilmu secara spontan, hahaha kalau emergency mati dulu patient sebelum aku dapat discover the treatment..aku kalau benda yang berlaku secara tiba-tiba membuatkan otak aku tak function secara tiba-tiba so yeah I'm out from medic. Then why not pure bio? Haaa, sebab aku ni degil. Aku nak amik something more specific kalau amik pure bio kan kene belajar pasal pokok la jadah jadah, aku tak minat, I'm more into human stuff. So aku ubah pilihan aku. Mostly biomed, microb and biochem. Aku target aku dapatlah microb jadi strategy aku, aku nak letak benda yang aku yakin tak dapat seperti medic kat dalam list aku, so bila aku letak benda yang aku tak dapat, aku assume aku punya pilihan akan jadi narrower and so I will be chosen into to study microb. But then turns out aku tak dapat langsung upu tu...not at all. Frust nak mampus weh! Maybe sebab aku tak letak microb as my top 4 choices. And aku slack dekat chemistry aku. Chem aku dapat B so yeah go to hell la kalau nak sambung biomed kan. Then aku apply UM and UPM, which since UiTM tak ada microb for degree. Aku call UM aku tanya kenapa aku tak dapat, then dia cakap competitive tinggi. Besides aku punya cgpa 3.45 so not even pass the 3.50 so yeah...
Maka selepas menangis meratap kepergian impian gue, aku pun buat la upu appeal tu, and aku apply optometry since dia cakap aku layak...hahaha, well I'm a big dreamer ok. And bioinfo as my 3rd choice since 1st and 2nd aku letak yang ada interview and 4th choice aku Geoinformatics kat utm jugak. Oh, btw utk appeal upu, dia ada 4 choices je and pilihan yang ada tu depends on your result and kekosongan tempat... p/s: aku layak kot amik optometry and microb hahaha! So kalau dah jodoh tak kemana, maka dapatlah aku tawaran untuk study BCS Bioinformatics dekat UTM, benda yang aku letak masa fasa pertama upu...so aku assume aku memang ditakdirkan di sini. Kalau aku tak ubah pilihan aku masa fasa pertama upu mesti aku menangis macam orang hilang anak kan! Tapi tak pe la, aku belajar untuk membuat pilihan yang bijak for the future later, gitchewww! Hahahahaha!!
Another thing yang buat aku tak tahu tentang perasaan aku dekat sini is aku sebenarnya tak nak belajar dekat UTM sebab dekat dengan rumah. So macam tak feel ah nak belajar...tak rasa homesick pun! Hahahahaha, homesick tu best ok!
So aku pun bagitau la dekat member dari sekolah rendah yang senasib dengan aku ni yang aku tak rasa excited etc ada kat sini...tak macam masa aku kat dengkil. It's completely feeling less, dia more to perasaan stress. And surprisingly bukan aku je, member aku ni pun sama, stress gak sebab dia nak sambung biology and tak nak jumpa dah fizik ni, dah siap buang buku fizik, tapi ended up amik fizik industry dkat UTM gak, dekat dengan rumah jugak. Hahahaha, so kami berdua meluahkanlah perasaan yang tak ada perasaan tu.
Tak de la weh, aku dah la still tak sekepala dengan kawan baru...aku ni suka loyer buruk, dulu ada je orang nak layan loyer buruk aku ni, tapi kat sini diorang cam tak nak play along with my loyer buruk instead aku siap kena "pukul manja" lagi dengan kawan aku...pukul manja tu sakit doh, aku ni dah la lemah...hahahahahaha! Diorang cem serious je, kawan dengan orang baik pun susah, hahaha...then aku ni kalau masuk lab memang jenis suka pegang try equipments yang ada tau, tapi aku bukan buat apa pun just wondering how it works, dia compatible ke tak dengan other equipments etc and kawan aku punya serious sampai dia stress/annoyed/marah dengan melihat aku memegang stuffs tu semua...hahaha, chill doh. Tak de la, I'm not stupid to not knowing what I'm doing, faham tak? I know what I'm doing doh and it's my nature to try things out to wonder how it work etc. Kemon la, bosan nak mampus kot nak try dat thing kene warning, nak try this thing tak boleh, oh god, lifeless.
Asyhr.
It's been a while
So it's been a while since my last update. As usual, always 'a while'.
I did think to update my blog, tapi my laptop is having a severe problem and it cannot be switched on langsung! I was so speechless especially sebab I dah siapkan my TITAS assignment but I didn't send it yet sebab I think it's pretty early for me to send, so I kept it in my laptop. Then I tried to open my laptop the next day and boom! Tak boleh switch on langsung weh! Bila aku tekan on button tu, dia "cuba" nak hidup pastu dia macam menendang and tak hidup. Aigoo, masalah masalah! Dah la all of my stuff is there in the laptop and I didn't have any copy of it because I told ya, my laptop is severely damaged, hahaha...unknown virus in there so I'm afraid of inserting my pendrive into the laptop. And stupidly tak terfikir pun nak save dekat google drive. No. Actually terfikir but well, I'm so lazy to do all dat and also aku takut gambar tak elok published in public...boleh je setting security tapi..i kan pemalas~~ bear with me, and I deserve to lost all the stuff in it..
Ok enuff of all that.
Asyhr.
I did think to update my blog, tapi my laptop is having a severe problem and it cannot be switched on langsung! I was so speechless especially sebab I dah siapkan my TITAS assignment but I didn't send it yet sebab I think it's pretty early for me to send, so I kept it in my laptop. Then I tried to open my laptop the next day and boom! Tak boleh switch on langsung weh! Bila aku tekan on button tu, dia "cuba" nak hidup pastu dia macam menendang and tak hidup. Aigoo, masalah masalah! Dah la all of my stuff is there in the laptop and I didn't have any copy of it because I told ya, my laptop is severely damaged, hahaha...unknown virus in there so I'm afraid of inserting my pendrive into the laptop. And stupidly tak terfikir pun nak save dekat google drive. No. Actually terfikir but well, I'm so lazy to do all dat and also aku takut gambar tak elok published in public...boleh je setting security tapi..i kan pemalas~~ bear with me, and I deserve to lost all the stuff in it..
Ok enuff of all that.
Asyhr.
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